Ah! I spend two hours on the phone with Huda and my sorethroat had worsen. It should be her, should be. School for studies and Reetha and Alli came by with Huda on tow. Funny prank about Alli fainting and stuff.


Oh well. Let's be random fandom haha. Went to tuition, with this kind of sorethroat, it annoys me since I can't talk much (or at all for that matter). I sound like an old record, where the needle scratched few parts off the convo, or like the liquid paper dissolving letters off my words. How annoying. I wonder what Huda must have went through the harrowing experience of understanding my gibberish. LOL. Enough of talks.


I had a motivational sidebet with Jiamin dearest (again -.-). Here goes. I hope to God I won't lose or else I'll probably have to rob a bank to finance. Overall winner in A level results based on the point-system will be treated Hyatt or Cafe Vienna lunch. If either one beats the other in Math and/or Economics, a Swensen's ice-cream treat is to be given. Heavy my God. But I'm determined to win. Die Jiamin! Prepare to declare bankruptsy (is that how you spell it??) by April. LOL.

Something entertaining while taking a break from all those Keynes, population pyramids, Mussolini and Cartesians. Click here for excitement! (not porn videos no worries).

I felt like uploading pictures.





Teo Qing Rui's work!! I am so uber proud of my lanky friend from NAFA. Apparently he won third in the competition by Nike. Designing ad for them. His work is also up alongside the bus stop of Orchard Road. Hurrah for Teo!






Ah! Another favourite group; my soccer year ones (: I miss training with them all, albeit it being a short time period, but as the mother of cliche goes; its better to have some of the cake than none.

Tired and I want to sleep. Good night world.
Just you, you and only you ((:

ofblack&white
11:44 PM

AH. Crisis, having sorethroat's the pits, for it impede my singing, and sing I must, so as to release stress and DO MATH. If it is not a spoiler moment I don't know what else it could be called.


Hm. Cheese pratas darkened my doorsteps for breakfast, cheery morning with the pig herself and Mubarak. Anyway its quite a nice weather, so lovely sitting in the class with songs that's lined with crazy basses, keyboards, guitars and vocals. Well basically great metal bands of course, blasted through B4-11 coursing through my veins HAHA. Kat came and joined me till we got chased out of the classroom at about 4 nearing 5. Ah. Conducive, but the place seemed to follow office hours, 8 to 5. HA lame I know.



Decided to take a walk to the 87 bus stop, accompanied by Huda's voice via phone of course. Been... 4-5 days since I've talked to her on the phone. Haha! Speculating over things not worth speculating about, dumbo. Small footnote for you, the password's changed; instead of yellow, its pink. I hope you understand.


((: Make me smile today. I love the ealier part of the day, since you made me smile. ((: (No it doesn't refer to Kat).

ofblack&white
10:19 PM

My day was supposed to be spent studying but I'm too distracted to do so. I got interested, instead, in Dante's work, La Divina Commedia; the Divine Comedy. Which is a disturbing title indeed, seeing that all it's about is Hell and its depth.


Besides the point. Procrastination was semi-killed, only to be reawaken again. AAHH. WHY. And I start to miss someone alot right now that it sucked because you can't bloody concentrate. I want to send a ninja to obliterate such person so I could do well for my A's. HAHA.



I felt that prickly feeling in shower, and I realised I have a slight very slight fever. Please go away thank you (see I remembered my manners so you better oblige). And my period's here, how I hate periods. They gave you the cramps even punches don't. I can't wait till I'm fifty plus, hit menopause and stop going through the hassle. Ok whatever.


AH woe. It rained boys&girls again, such a refreshing change to the humidity of past few days. Someone is giving me education of the male anatomy, something I don't really need to know, but curious all the same. LOL. And a friend just got his heart broken by an elusive girl, just 4 days before A's. Good God I hope he's not too depressed to sit for the paper. (:

Can't stop, still. It grows my dear, like a tumour. Why? I'll tell you after A's.

ofblack&white
9:51 PM

Of what money cannot buy. You may think I'm those kind of money-crazy biatch who jumps into anyone with money. Well maybe that's what I jokingly portray.



But jokes aside. If you know me well enough money and bags don't really win me over, if my resolve is set.

Apparently he doesn't know me well enough.


Haha and if you know me well enough you know who I go for ((:

ofblack&white
12:28 PM

Well Selamat Hari Raya maaf zahir batin to all (a reply to Qai's tag on the board). It's like any other years, just that money quadrupled ten times over, and I really think I can buy my Free already. ((: Nothing much to say nowadays, just that I spend quite alot of time at B4-11 quite a sanctuary for studying. And study on like a mugger.



Well, as much as I studied, I don't really have that confidence to go for it. Don't ask why. I just felt that I'm not knowing enough and the bull. I'm not smart, that stated. That's why I have to work harder. );



I just got back from Ms Huda's house, nice place with nice company, although the absence of a spice twin and the charlie's angels made it mellow (not too mellow, there's Syahril remember?). Quite a bit of cam whoring and such. Food! And something else. I lost three or four times in the dumb number game. Haha. Much love, miss their company.


I feel a sorethroat coming. I think it came already. Shits. Haha. I hate the feeling of sorethroat, since it makes me incapable of singing, my pastime. Ho wells. I miss someone alot right now. And I still feel like slapping Hamzah for that stare at someone last Monday. Gah.



"Indeed, We have sent you forth as a witness, a bearer of good news and a warner." He is called Muhammad.

ofblack&white
4:12 PM

Ah. When the festive season comes close, it ALWAYS calls for a spring clean. I managed to reduce my paper-bulk by an eighth, quite a feat really. Well that's about wrapped up my day. I felt the urge to blog on MY computer. Yea! It's repaired. No one can perform magic on the computer like Uncle Idrus. Everything was intact, pictures music etc. So happy ((: Really really.



So I didn't manage to study much today. Tell me how when your parents hollered your name every five minutes. I was frustrated beyond words. And I still can't chew properly! It's a good day and bad day for me. Rolled in one. It's a meringue-day, that's what I baked today. Ma wants to drizzle chocolate on it later. See, I'm not totally handicapped in the kitchen (unlike someone). And I CAN fry an egg. See?



I wish, I wish, the haze would disappear. Aren't they doing anything at all? And till the end of time. (: I guess we'll make it possible yes?

Attack the Ruffles! Good night world.

ofblack&white
11:53 PM

Toothaches, they rarely come when the time is right actually the time for toothaches are never right) but I don't exactly expect it so close to Hari raya and examinations. I feel my wisdom tooth urging to make an appearance. AAAAAHHH. It's even so hard to eat my favourite cheddar and sour cream. Bullshit. It hurts, and the pain doesn't restrict itself to my mouth only, its everywhere on left face. I HATE IT SOO.



B4-11 yesterday from 0745 till 1600. I managed to get things done thank God. With the crybaby to join me, a manly being (CJ). Haha started the day off by playing bingo then studied. In the midst of everything we decided to play Raya songs on the class' soundsystem. So nice. Took a shower at 12+ and talked a bit to Huda before taking a short nap on the tables. The way I talk about it is like, I'm at home. I love the place.



But well, the travelling up four storeys, to school took a toll. Lights out by 2230. Haha! Can't help it. Taught Tisya hre fractions when she came over. Mom and Bik Sri was bakin pineapple tarts and meringues! I love meringues (if that's how you spell it).



My mouth still hurts. Haha. Back to booooks. (:
Good morning world!

ofblack&white
8:54 AM

Beggars.
It's not that I am against them or anything. It's just, I find begging the last resort; the solution when there's no other path. Why? Because I'm throwing away my shame and pride for help. Well. Apparently that's not for those who seem to beg often especially during this fasting month. I wonder if they felt the shame burning when they ask. Maybe they really don't have an alternative. Ah well. C'est la vie.



Hello Rachel Wong Shuli Panda! I'm mildly (and pleasantly) surprised to know that you still drop by brightcity (although you said it's only when you have nothing to do =.=) (: Congrats on your FANTASTIC result. She got C for Math and can still groan about it being lousy.



Oh. Apparently some people were astounded by the existence of the classroom B4-11. Haha! It does exist lah. That happened to be where i holed up studying from 0745 hours. Ungodly hours I know. But I got to push myself. Proud that CJ got most improved for H1, have I mentioned that before? Lol.


Ok I'm really pooped. I want to finish up my inflation, international trade and hopefully BOP as well by tomorrow!! History felt neglected please! Haha.


"Sun of San Sebastian eighteen years young today/She's all I ever dream, and now my skies are turning grey." Sonata Arctica. OWNS!

ofblack&white
11:34 PM

Ah. The haze, it stings one's eye. So bad. =.=



Today was ultimate tiredness. Good news though, the math paper did not kill me, I manage to get a B. Just the booster I need. I'm not going for History tomorrow. I'm so unprepared and going for it is like wasting 3 whole hours. Blaaah. I played all of 10 minutes of basketball and soccer today before being called out due to the... haze. Seriously, can't anybody do anything about it? Get people to do rain dances, on the couch! I'm so out of touch with sports. Have to wait till after A's baby.



"Ask me why i keep on loving you when it's clear you don't feel the same way for me... The problem is that as much as I can't force you to love me, I can't force myself to stop loving you."
Ouch to that quote. How apt. But it's nice lah.



One more hour till break fast. All i want to do now, frankly, is to have nice uninterrupted deep sleep. Spare me that simple commodity will you?
Why, I have to ask.

ofblack&white
6:01 PM

Of course school will never be really over. Do you think the teachers would be contented with just preliminary examinations before the A's? Fat hope. So mock exams are on the way.I wonder if these are all a mean to get the student population panicking (as if we're not).



As usual, I'll moan and groan about fatigueness. Stupid Winnie promoted Chicken Essence to me and my mom, being the great mind reader, got a few bottles out. NOOO.



Life seems to get fractionally better, what's with cute black orange white kittens and walking home with long lost friends on Friday. (: Tomorrow is Math Mock paper 2. I don't know if I can stomach it. Albeit my love for math, I never seem to ace it at junior college level. I learn that we should blame ourselvesfor it. So blame me, not my brains ok? I'm too lazy for anything. Haha!



"Dreams are free, so free your dreams."
Wan an love.

ofblack&white
10:29 PM

Oh. Graduation Day was yesterday. Quite a hooha, with camwhoring session lasting more than an hour.Like how fun was that, especially in uniform in the sweltering heat (and to top it off its the fasting month)? Lol VERY. Much photos but I couldn't get all of them, which counted up to nearly a hundred (I think). Nice-ish. Haven't uploaded the one in my camera, which have a sweet thing. (:


The ceremony and stuff was fine thank you. So I was tempted, oh you know how temptation bites. To tell everything.

Well the captions will be from songs. Don't blame me for being mainstream.




Will you stand by me, and never let me go?




We'll do it all, everything, on our own.
We don't need anyone, or anything.




Would lie with me and just forget the world?


Ah. The dumb song's stuck in my head. Graduation was not as sad as i expected to be. But something's gnawed inside. ): I loved the class. Such fantastic memories, good and bad. But like they say, good things, they have to come to an end. I want to thank all of them for everything. Zy Mingmin Xj Jas Michlai Loretta Angie Aniza Mayyee Michlim Syahril Ham Naz Heiwai Jolyn Wilson and Qinglin. (: that's the whole class alright. Not forgetting the tutors! I must say our cg is quite fortunate for cool interesting and sarcastic tutors.


Anyway nostalgia aside. Er Anas' dad passed away yesterday. ): My grandad happened to pass out while I talked to him on the phone and he was readmitted (he's back at home now though) and AmandaLoh got into hot soup. What a hooha yesterday.


How? I don't want to say goodbye to you.
"The walls we built around us to keep sadness out also keeps out joy." I tore it down. So its time to face the music. After what happened on Wednesday, I realised anything can happen.

Tu me fais sourire.

ofblack&white
9:29 PM

Hey hey! I've surprised myself yet again! MOST IMPROVED ARTS STUDENT. I literally screamed when ms Huda told me about it yesterday. Hoho! Each of us fantasticfour received something, Naz for most improved performance in MLA, while the males got the oustanding student leader award. Heyhey! Finally able to bring something back after two years of (sucky) education. ((:


Ok achievements aside. Haha! Slept over at Grandma's yesterday. It was comfy as usual. Studied at the (quiet) void deck filled with lovable fatcats till 11+. This is the time when I could appreciate the 2 megapixel-ed cameraphone.





And that everyone, is my favourite picture of them all. Doesn't it look sad and cute! Lol!


Planning for chalets also took my mind of academia when I needed to. Funn. Having one for class and the girls of course. Both would most probably be at Tanah Merah again. Yayhay! It's slightly pricey I have to say, but worth it! No? Got a caterer for the food too, thanks to Naz's www.bbqwholesale.com. ((: Things to look forward to after the big A's ya? But there's the big hurdle. I cannot say I'm prepared at all.=.= Oh Priscilla's friend gave a mooncake. With egg yolk hahah just my favourite. So my days are a crest now. I don't know, but my year has some sort of a cycle, bright things after a big dip. Ah well.



"Apology is a lovely perfume; it can transform the clumsiest moment into a gracious gift."
I think it's high time for me to.

ofblack&white
1:24 PM

Mellowed down. I feel that way. Especially when its the fasting month and well, you basically used up all your energy studying that you cannot be bothered to be bothered anymore. Ha! I've been Math-ing like a nerd. I feel so different but hey, just for the few weeks left. Then I'm quite free to do as I like. Soccer!

Ohh. The haze had been sucky. It was so bad I can't even see Marine Parade area and Parkway. Ok, I can't really see my uncle's house which about 500 metres from mine. Bad eh? I was wondering if anybody is doing anything about it. I dreamt of a gigantic fan blowing all this haze back to Indonesia. Can't the government do something about this pollution its driving me nuts. Believe it or not my t-shirt smell of smoke. And I hate not studying with the windows shut. And I especially hate it when my parents whine about why-don't-you-switch-on-the-bleeding-aircon-so-you-can-breathe crap. I'm still alive with my fan thank you.

i'm tempted to shower again. Have that grubby feeling on my hands.

I've made a mess out of other things. But I've told you haven't I? I'm going to salvage my academia. Must do it. Just so that my life won't be a total wreck. (:

ofblack&white
2:20 PM

Really. there comes a point in time that I will get sleepy when the clock chimes ten. Or even half past nine. Oh my God. Just the time for me to curb my sleeping hours and this happens. Haha.

Had dinner with Cj, she came over. Boy she can eat a cow. No exaggeration, really. Four helpings of rice and one a half whole sambal fish. Not those miniscule-need-a-microscope-to-see kind of fish. The full grown momma fish. Oh man. had some Math session with her, teach her abit here abit there, hope its sufficient enough for her to pass.

Ah. Tiring days, some not productive. Haha. It's been terrible days in school for certain reasons, yet certain days things kind of brighten up. But certain days has been and I think will permanently remain badd.

How? I don't know why I shove that wedge in between when everything was alright. Blame mr Jealousy.

Studymugstudymugcup. Whatever.

ofblack&white
10:25 PM

Miracles do happen. Bad things do result in good once in a while. So I passed the disastrous Economics, with a D/E? I was expecting the worse, what's with minsterpretation of questions and such. I managed to get highest in class for essay, measley 39 though. But it's quite enough to give me the moral booster I needed.

I left school at 11.30 just now, pitstopped Popular with Zy to stock up on stationery, and proceeded to the Grandma's. I studied downstairs, where I've met 12 year-olds who (were awed at my aggregate 234) were asking for tips for PSLE. Er. >.< I saw old childhood friends like Khairul with his cousin Zul (who used to be in my primary school). Gosh how he's grown. =\ Think what you will. Khairul seemed mildly insulted when I commented on his dressing which resembled a mat.

Break-fasting there was nice. Haha oh yea. Aqil practically terrorised my favourite cat, who got angry when he kept bullying her. So evil lah that cousin of mine. He kept teasing her (the cat) that she meow-ed loudly at him when he comes near. Laughable sight.


Alot of cute cats around at night when I made my way home. So cute... Took my mind off things.

"Grant me wings so I can fly high and protect you"

ofblack&white
10:26 PM

The best way to end your weekends is to get screamed at for something I did not do. This is,I must say, one of my pet peeves. Obviously, getting frustrated with your dad would not help and (as usual) it reduced me to tears (again). It always boils down to these MCPs (not Malayan Communist Party, its MALE CHAUVINIST PIG) and how they-are-always-right. Much rantings and I loved that listening ear that he provide.

I'm tired with all the going ons.

Anyway some pikturez to brighten upmy drabby life and blog. Like they say, pictures speaks a thousand words, however a cliche may go. Funny, how happy I may be on a day and a wreck the next.




I was contemplating on sending this to McDonald for an ad. Look how much joy it brought me with mcSpicy.




The Fantastic Four. Few of the closest friends. (:




Syahril looks wrong. He really looks slutty and... wrong. And I don't provide free services.




I see murderous intentions hovering behind me.




The joys and laughter of Thursday brought to you by Nokia.



Hamzah got that fierce look. Lol! Without spectacles I think he'll look good, cheekbones and all. Lol!




My personal favourite amongst all. Really (as quoted from Syahril) Top-Model. I learnt the fierce-face effect from the vain one himself.

Ok destressing time over. Back to the damned books.

ofblack&white
4:24 PM